I guess I should change the title of the blog to "Being a Single Mom at 22" now, huh? It's been a month and I have since given birth to a beautiful baby girl, Mackenzie. Everything about my life from when I started this blog has changed except Mackenzie. I started this blog when she was just a little fetus in my belly and now she is a wonderful, thriving 9 month old who is playing beside me as I type.

Mackenzie is my life. Her smile, her laugh, her baby talk; everything about her is perfect. Being a mom can be tough, but the rewards that come with it are immeasurable. It has been a rough year since the last post. John and I struggeled up until the very end... My dad was diagnosed with brain cancer 10 days before Mackenzie was born and it has since turned my world upside down. To make a very long story short, I decided to live at home with my family and John and I could not agree on anything and the day before I was discharged from the hospital we completely went our seperate ways.

After a very long and painful court process, John and I have since been raising our daughter seperately. He has her every other weekend and two weeks throughout the summer and we alternate holidays. It is very hard being a single mom and there are many times I have to breathe and just look at my babygirl to remind myself how lucky I am. Time is precious. Sleep is almost a joke. And leisurely activities are certainly not the same. No matter what though, I wouldn't change a thing! I love my life.

Single life is not so bad either. I have always been a relationship, ever since I was 13 years old. For the first time in my life I have had the time to discover myself. I finally learned that I don't need a man to make me feel appreciated... I now have a daughter that does that every. single. day. The smile that she gives me when I come home from work is enough for me to know that I will live my life for her. Anything and everything I can do for her, I will. I ADORE HER.

So once again, I'm not sure what to make of this blog, but it's always nice just to type things out and organize your thoughts. if you're reading feel free to comment. always nice to know that your voice is being heard!